Ever loved so much that you love the other person more then you love yourself,
Fear of loving or being loved
Fear of believing in what love really feels like
Fear of never allowing yourself to love again
My pastor says if you have hope you have faith
Faith destroys all fears
So do I have Hope
Can I allow
Or will fear take over my life .
Only time will tell
God has not time only his
Your silly blogger
Melimel
What is the greatest gift someone could give you?
Peace
Ever had that one person you always thought of and wondered what if ?
wondering why would that person have eyes for you,
what if you’re not their type.
we may smile here, smile there,
eye contact so strong that you start to blush
feeling butterfies in your stomach wondering why.
enjoying his / her conversation about life
intrigued by their way of thinking
falling for his / her mind
and then finally that one kiss
WOW !
smiling some more
blushing a lot more
your creativity comes back
something was sparked
NAH!!!!!!!!!!
reality hits back
you’re to broken
you’re to hurt
STOP !
you’re afraid
afraid to fall in love
afraid to trust , afraid to open up.
Your Silly Blogger
-MeliMel
2022 has been a roller coaster dealing with so much lost
So much pain and hurt
Being a mother isn’t easy you have to divide yourself with responsibilities and time for yourself
Which I haven’t accomplish as of yet
Always working
Dealing with my school work
Bills
Forgetting about my past heartache
Trying to find myself in the summer
To be broken once again
Dam I say I don’t know what GOD is doing
But I’m still standing
Fighting for my daughter to show them I can’t never give up and they can’t either
Staying strong for my mother after finding out she has cancer
Man being strong sucks
Can I get a shoulder to cry on
Can I get a moment to just cry it all away
But I’m still standing
Starting fresh
With no negativity to surrounded me
Or drop me
I got this
God has this
Your silly blogger
Melimel
HAPPY NEW YEAR’S EVERYONE
What are your goal this coming New Years!
Instead of saying “starting this New Year’s, I want to lost weight and tone my body” which this is one of my goals.
write down what you need mentally:
What makes me happy?
What would bring me joy today?
What could give me pleasure today?
How can I stay positive today?
as you can see I asked myself what would I need TODAY, well giving yourself a daily goal would help you start with self-care
we sometimes forget what we need as adults,
we forget about what would we need to smile again
to be joyful
to enjoy every pleasure that’s been given.
I want to start with healing myself
heal from the past heartaches
find me again
enjoy life
laugh again
sing even if I can’t
write again
paint again
enjoy every creativity that pops in my head.
I want to be happy again I want to love again but the right way I want to be loved with-out lies, pain or regrets.
Just the real love !
Happy Holidays everyone!
Your silly blogger
-MeliMel
In life we or do I say I, think of our’s emotions before my own.
Learning this about about myself I think is time for me to start thinking about myself first.
someone told me putting ours before yourself isn’t safe, you are waiting to get yourself hurt.
I can’t help who I am, but I have learned to love me first before anyone.
I gave chances to people who have hurt me so deep and scattered me in pieces that it hurts me even more knowing how selfish others are.
I ask myself don’t they see the pain I have?
People like this don’t deserve people like me. or maybe GOD has other plans what ever it is I did my part of allowing the our person to heal from their mistakes.
now is my turn to live again or is this selfish. Am I allowed to love and to smile again to enjoy life again.
Can someone understand what we need in life?
Is it selfish to want to love and be loved the right way?
To be happy again ?
Those real love even exist any more?
Am I being selfish?
Your Silly Blogger,
-MeliMel
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Being a mother isn’t as easy as it seems !
Growing up all I ever seen was my mother play both rows, mom and dad hey ! I can’t complain.
My mother would never show her pain
She said showing emotions May kill you. Allowing others to see through you makes you weak.
So I became that mom , why? well life
Man ! I was the most humblest loveable caring women ever.
Two failed marriages, shattered into so many pieces. I showed my girls how to never show emotions.
Who said I would be dealing with a situation so hard that all I do is show my feelings.
Crying for every memory
Every smile
Man !
Our own children would makes us double think.
We raise them to be the best they can be, always showed them to never use the word I can’t .
For what !
Society has taken over in so many ways.
The pandemic has discontinued our children from feeling
from expressing what they feel
From understanding what’s right and what’s wrong .
Losing control of what we as parents can only have.
Our children aren’t afraid of death
Of pain
The fear we once had growing up, this generation don’t know or understand
Being a church girl knowing who my lord is was my fear.
Fear of what he may do.
Suicide is real
Suicidal thoughts are real
Depression is real
Everything I’ve been through can’t compared to hearing my child wanting to give up in life.
Not being able to fix her
Not even loving her can fix it.
Seeing her face the pain she’s in not being able to just take her.
Understanding that I have to just let go and listen.
We as parents don’t know all answers. All I know I have to be strong. I have to make sure she don’t give up. I also have to remember others may have it worst.
I’m blessed that I able to see her now.
That I still have her.
Her smile gives me hope that she’s going to be ok.
Enjoying her conversations
Enjoying her stories
Her showing me her pictures
My heart melted of joy.
I pray for my child and every other child that’s going through this same situation May the lord cover them with his arms and protect them from any negative thoughts from the pain they feeling May the lord tell them in their dreams that they are loved from God they are Gods children.
In Jesus name I pray 🙏 Amén
Lord continue to make mothers like me stronger to move forward to have faith in your victory because you can fix this.
we are super moms we may fall but we pick ourselves back up and keep it moving. Wipe our tears of pain and crack when we say we fine.
Super moms we rock !
Blessings
Melimel 💜
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Understanding life isn’t meant for everyone
Realizing nothing is meant forever
Your beauty fades
Your body becomes wrinkled
You age faster
But is all that true
Finding out your body is killing within
Giving up because you can’t take no more
To much stress
To much depression
Losing hope
Only smiling to show you are fine
Keeping all the pain within so no one may know how you feel.
Loving life 
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