Unknown Feelings ?

So many different emotions running around me so much fear and waste I haven’t let go off.

Not knowing what I’m feeling,

Not understanding why I’m so lost in faith.

so much that I’ve seen that it isn’t the enemy speaking is the actions I’ve observed from those who question other’s ways.

handling so much pain which it isn’t so understanding in his grace.

I asked so many times why am I having these unknown feelings?

why am I giving up so fast,

unknowing how to explain my feelings

unknown how to feel

why I ask but I haven’t received no reply no answer in no way.

why we here in this earth to struggle to endure so much pain

feeling lost isn’t the worst is not having a feeling to any emotion

not caring

Till is to late

with one call everything falls and breaks

I ask why?

so much pain?

Why me? it isn’t fair life is so unfair, I’ve done everything right everything i had to do but what did i do to feel all this pain this numness.

Oh Lord why?

maybe one day when I’m gone; maybe someone may give me the right answer, so when someone else asks the same thing they would find it.

life is funny and at the same time people are so evil not knowing they just hurting themselves.


Happy Thanksgiving

Good morning

How was everyone Thanksgiving?

Can I say if you cook everything on your own God bless you, because I needed a day in bed for cooking two days in a row. Then to go out to eat. Woooo!

Any who’s enough of me, how did you spend your day? What are your family traditions?

I miss having my son around and helping me cook dinner and fixing the table let me tell you my girls aren’t about any traditional dinners lol! I guess. I miss those days.

But I’m bless for everything else in my life no complaining.

God bless each and everyone of my readers may this weekend be filled with love joy and abonance and lots of laughter in Jesús name I pray amen 🙏

Your silly blogger

Melimel AV

Water walking

Understand the impossible to many people see as terrifying


When Jesus walked on water and told his disciples “sit still is I “ they were so terrified instead of being grateful of seeing a miracle

Just know that God has his ways of teaching his lessons so we can learn from it and not trip over them again

Look at all the circumstances you go through in life look at them like if they’re waves how is it that God is helping you correct those waves and increase your faith and believe in him.

Jesus name I pray Lord protect those who are reading my blogs show them who you are show them that every wave they going through that every impossible becomes possible lord teach them that every Wave is a lesson that they have to learn from

in Jesus name I pray amen.

Your sister Melimel

God bless 🙏


life is crazy unfair and with lots of disappointments we lose we win we gain but when we lose a love one we lose who we was we lose a piece that they take we may hold memories but not having that physical touch talk or hug we lose it all my emotions are every where my thoughts are unknown my heart beat beats differently my tears I have no control of oh lord contain me !